i flew over a big ass curb on the way back from depressed drinking. i was almost 90 degrees. i almost died. it didnt really matter if im still here or not. if i was still here writing this stupid little blog. i met new friends at the bar in beach club. it was rather interesting. talked to this girl for quite awhile. then a few guys that came and went. i guess im rather social now.
id rather die from that car crash than be here writing this. i feel like shit. today was sy's birthday. everything went well until i saw my ex and her new boyfriend. he shaved his head bald. so fucknig what. i dont care. i took a glance at pik and just smiled and walked away. while doing that, i also took a short glance at her. i didnt want to see her. but i did. the look on her face just melted me. i went straight to the stairway where we fought on my birthday. i was banging the wall and almost banged my head on the wall. i dont know what made me felt that way. maybe i just missed her too much. maybe i wanted to see her more ... just alone ... not with anyone else. just her. but unfortunately i saw him as well. he took the dignity to actually smile at me. fuck him. i dont give a fuck if he smiled or not. he fucking tried to take away my ex away from me when i was with her. there is a code somewhere among men that we know. never to steal another mans woman. fuck ass. i dont care if she reads this or not. i really dont. she can hate me all she wants. i wouldnt give a rats ass. i really hate his guts as he flirts with her constantly and seduce her with his stupid little things. id rather die than see him again.
i dont understand what is wrong with me. these few days i was alright. well, almost alright. then this day had to come. i knew it would come but i didnt expect it to come today. i knew i would see her and him one day. just both of them. they would be probably fucking right now knowing how horny my ex would be. no condoms, no strings attached. just fuck. i did that and the worst had to happen. i dont give a fuck about him. i give a fuck about her. i really do.
rick.
id rather die from that car crash than be here writing this. i feel like shit. today was sy's birthday. everything went well until i saw my ex and her new boyfriend. he shaved his head bald. so fucknig what. i dont care. i took a glance at pik and just smiled and walked away. while doing that, i also took a short glance at her. i didnt want to see her. but i did. the look on her face just melted me. i went straight to the stairway where we fought on my birthday. i was banging the wall and almost banged my head on the wall. i dont know what made me felt that way. maybe i just missed her too much. maybe i wanted to see her more ... just alone ... not with anyone else. just her. but unfortunately i saw him as well. he took the dignity to actually smile at me. fuck him. i dont give a fuck if he smiled or not. he fucking tried to take away my ex away from me when i was with her. there is a code somewhere among men that we know. never to steal another mans woman. fuck ass. i dont care if she reads this or not. i really dont. she can hate me all she wants. i wouldnt give a rats ass. i really hate his guts as he flirts with her constantly and seduce her with his stupid little things. id rather die than see him again.
i dont understand what is wrong with me. these few days i was alright. well, almost alright. then this day had to come. i knew it would come but i didnt expect it to come today. i knew i would see her and him one day. just both of them. they would be probably fucking right now knowing how horny my ex would be. no condoms, no strings attached. just fuck. i did that and the worst had to happen. i dont give a fuck about him. i give a fuck about her. i really do.
rick.
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